:: serangoon... beep beep beep beep beep ::

i was still in slumberland when the train reached my stop. i don't know why i am so tired today. so i opened my eyes because i thought i heard the word "serangoon". i stretched my neck and tried to peer out of the train amidst the massive crowd. alright... it's really serangoon. some of the aunties are so fat i really wonder how did they get pass the ticket gate in the first place. and the people on the train are like so scared that if they move out of the train so that i can get out, the doors will immediately shut them out and move off. the world would be a much better place if their brains can be as big as their butts.

so i hurriedly got my ass off the chair and tried to squeeze my way out of the train. but damn it. my left leg is numb and i cannot walk. i nearly fell down and i had to hold on to the railings and tried to skip out of the train with my right leg. everyone around me was looking at what i was trying to do and i vividly remember a few of them raising an eyebrow. and no one helped me! not that i want them to help also, it's so embarassing already. i just want to get out of the train, fast.

i managed to free myself from the sardine packed train before the doors closed on me. so i tried to walk again. cannot! my left ankle has totally lost all feelings and i can't feel it either. it's like the entire leg has became useless. so i had to choose between skipping on one leg again or just stand there. the train station is quite crowded as it's the rush hour. i had enough of making a fool outta myself, so i decided to stand there. so i squatted down, despite the scary thought of losing my balance and falling flat on my face, and pretended to tie my shoelace.

then the worse part came. my leg regained a little bit of its life and i can feel it. it sure feels like a thousand needles poking at the bone. anyway i figured that standing there or pretending to tie my shoelace seems like quite lame an idea because i noticed people beginning to stare at me. so i decided to try to make my way up the escalator. i had to limp my way to it.

as i thought my nightmare was gonna be over, i was in for a big surprise. when the escalator is about to reach the top, my leg can't move again. i was petrified. i've seen news of people falling down escalators and they always end up badly disfigured. but luckily i managed to stabilize myself and limped my way off the escalator.

i think it will be a long time before i would fall asleep on the train again.

:: the lost trails ::

i think paul lim has moved her blog somewhere and i don't know the address. so has petrina. does ivy have a blog? patricia's one is not updated for a long time, or has she moved too?

i haven't changed my blog layout for a long time. i have not clicked on the adobe photoshop icon for a long long time.

after going thru everyone's blog to make sure i am not missing out on anything, i noticed something which have not came across my mind all this time. ah! justina's blog! the comment link sounds very lewd and obscene. justina! *guffaws*

so those who have moved, please drop me a mail and lemme know your new blog address if you are ok with letting me read about your life.

:: gait stack and bait ::

too tired to blog yesterday after the dog show. so sorry to keep all of you, my fans, waiting.

the hall's bigger this time round which is better i think. it made the place seem less crowded and i can move around easily. oh yah, must thank greg and chef for dropping by.

i am so not going to handle a schnauzer again. the wait is so long the dog gets tired and bored out before entering the ring. maybe it's a different game afterall for schnauzers. it's not the usual dog out of crate and into the ring kind of competition.

but krystal is seriously a very uncooperative bitch. she will just sit down when she feels like it. she doesn't respond to any command. morever her level of concentration is very very low. she needs alot more training. but i think she is not a very well structured dog and it's very difficult to win even at class level. there's simply too many exhibits.

the next show's coming up quite soon. so excited. i don't know if i should join the handling competition with paul. the usual contestants like carmen, amos and shawn should be joining also.  i think it would be a very tough competition. hmm...

:: everybody's changing ::

people change as time goes by huh. or maybe they didn't really change. i just failed to see that they are actually like this in the very first place.

i'm like a wild dog that does not belong to any pack. i'm moving along, usually alone. then at times, i would chance upon a pack that i fit in quite nicely. but the stays are always not long. after awhile, i would move away and maybe some time later i might just return. no no... i don't think dogs behave like that. maybe a ship at sea might be a better description. moving all the time, from place to place. then i might just return to the same place after my tour to others.

the dog show's coming! 3 more days. i can't wait. tomorrow would be the last time before the show to practice a little bit more. actually i am more concerned about not making a fool outta myself on the show day itself than winning any prizes. saturday would be chill out day, looking forward to it as well. it has been a long time eversince i last sat down with friends and not think about anything serious but just crap around and relax.

how come i have so much to say tonight? yet i find it hard to put some of my thoughts in words. i guess i am quite messed up now with so many things happening at the same time. hmph...

things in camp seems a little uptight lately. i feel very oppressed when i am there. but i guess that's how the army works. but i will be out of it soon. 11 months. i've survived 17 months already. 11 more isn't alot i guess.

i find that online friends are damn superficial. there are people whom i know online and we only chat online and that's all. tonight, yes only till tonight, i find talking to them quite a waste of time. i find that there isn't much sincerity put into the conversation. afterall, i don't know them that well and vice versa. but i guess only liars see that the world is full of liars.

refund is a good boy for 2 days. for 2 days he managed to keep his shit within the litter tray and pee nicely on the newspaper and not let any leak onto the floor. i think he's like me. very restless. i just can't sit down doing nothing. and even when i am doing something, i need to multitask. like right now, i am eating, blogging, listening to songs, singing along and keeping an eye on the download progress of some mp3s at the same time. refund can multitask too. he can shit and walk at the same time. tsk.

i feel like screaming into the pillow now. stress!

:: woof woof ::
 
wow wow wow. it's 6 more days to the dog show. i can feel the excitement in me already. i think i am always overly excited about outings and events. i can still remember when i used to attend hamster forum outings. i would get everything ready a few days before the outing, and usually i can't sleep the night before it.
 
this time round refund would be at home. it's good to let him take a rest and at the same time allow me to try handling other dogs. i would be handling krystal and maybe francesca if i can manage. probably should be able to manage just 2 dogs. hopefully win something from krystal, at least at the class level. but i would still aim for the cc.
 
so who's going to support me? in case fans reading this do not know, the dog show is this sunday. it would be held at singapore expo. i would really appreciate fans turning up to give me their support. but please bear in mind that i would be very busy and might not be able to entertain everyone. sincere apologies here. but anyone who is interested to volunteer themself as my personal assistant for the day, please write me a mail and i would let you know a.s.a.p. if i need your services. you would be in charge of carrying my stuffs and help me in whatever i need, how exciting eh. i would in turn give you a photograph of myself with autograph as a token of appreciation.
 
so i would probably be busier this week i guess. friday night would be last minute refining and "rehearsal" of everything. saturday would be a chill out day for everyone and the dogs. must relax a little for everyone before the show, although i am totally composed for it already. i'm as cool as a... erm... mint. lol.

:: the itch ::

i am having rashes since tuesday. my thighs swell up quite badly on thursday and i thought i am gonna suffer from elephanthitis or something. so i decided to head for sgh a&e despite everyone else's claims that i am just being a drama mama.

i thought the hospitals should be quite high-tech and erm well managed. but not quite. firstly i didn't know i have to get my temperature taken 'cause i didn't enter from the carporch area. i bet they must think that everyone coming to a&e at that hour should be coming in an ambulance. secondly, they didn't use the numbered ticket system. the nurses and doctors have to call out names instead. so i was straining my ears all the time to make sure i didn't miss the call. and when my name was called, i had to scurry to the diagnosis room, fast enough so that people won't associate my cheena name with my face. and thirdly, the pharmacist is very grouchy. they had this tray that says, put your prescription here. so i did. and she railed at me for putting the prescription there without letting her see my 'proof-of-payment' yet. damn her. so i showed her that i am from the army and i don't have to pay. and she told me to take a seat and wait for my name to be called. what seat? there's only 3 chairs and they're occupied by a malay man with headache, his wife and his daughter. and adding to that, another 10 or so concerned relatives. what the fuck?

anyway anyway the swelling has since gone down but the rash is spreading. i don't know what caused it. maybe i should go to the a&e again tonight to extend my mc since i seriously don't want to cause a public panic by appearing in the open now.

oh yah. refund is itchy too. he has scratched a little patch of fur off himself. i wonder if he spread it to me, or i spread it to him, or both cases aren't related at all.

boohoo. i feel like the plague.

:: 1 month ::

time sure flies eh. it has already been a month since me and terence are together. hehe. that probably explains why i seem so busy all this while.

went clubbing last night at centro. hehe. finally he can go with me. otherwise he will sulk again when i go with my other buds. i ordered like a tequila shot and 2 glasses of vodka orange for each of us. and he actually ordered champagne cause he thinks we should celebrate. it's quite cool i think. he's like the first boyfriend ever to be romantic. heh.

went fullerton hotel today for dinner. ok. seriously this is the first time i am dining at such an expensive place. the place is so quiet you can hear a pin drop. so i was like quite nervous all the time. anyway the service there is really good. the waitress is polite and the manager talked to us about the food before we eat and after we had finished.

he bought me a bracelet which i think is quite expensive. gee. it's weird that someone splurge on you. i don't know. it's the first time i am experiencing this. have kind of a mixed feeling. i wonder if it's good or bad. time will tell yah?