:: it's about time ::

i think it's about time for me to do what i need to do. and also time to really sit down quietly and realise who is good and who is not. i always give people the benefit of the doubt, but this time no. more than often i would dismiss bad behaviour from someone and try to look at the better side of things. i would always say "no lah. i don't think he is a bad person." but i am sick and tired of being wrongly accused. people can say what they want about me and i wouldn't even feel like explaining.

for those who understands, explanation is unnecessary
for those who do not, no explanation is possible

so you can think i am self-centred. or you can tell all your friends about how bad i am. but i wouldn't even bother 'cause i wouldn't even bother finding out what is happening anymore.

what i don't know can't hurt me

i must admit i am not a relatively nice person. but at least i know how to reciprocate. try biting me.

:: oh wells ::

my brother got into a lil argument with the friend who is supposed to bring the phone back to singapore for me. so now i will have to wait for my nephew to bring it back to me instead. i just hope my brother wouldn't squabble with him or anything this time.

i did not get any money for this week. and next week too. am i gonna die?

:: new phones ::

everyone's getting new phones. i am jealous.

anyway, i got a hair job last friday. ash blond. i look cute. i think my ever growing fan-base is gonna boom again.

thanks for the support!

:: needs and wants ::

i need money. but i am not gonna go around begging. i have backbone. so even someone decides to just deposit money into my account for some reason. no thanks. i just need some job recommendation now. hopefully i can get something that pays good. i do not mind hard work really. and now that i am really very free, long working hours is alright too.

i need a phone. my phone is wrecked some time back and i need a temporary phone for the time being. my brother's friend is gonna bring a phone back and pass it to me in 2 weeks time. so is there any kind soul out there with a spare phone for me to borrow?

ok that's the 2 main needs i have now.

but i also want :-
1) imac
2) ibook
3) new flooring
4) balcony
5) 42" plasma tv
6) more xbox games
7) new clothes
8) new wallet

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

:: get me away from here, i'm dying ::

oh get me away from here i'm dying
play me a song to set me free
nobody writes them like they used to
so it may as well be me
here on my own now after hours
here on my own now on a bus
think of it this way
you could either be successful or be us
with our winning smiles, and us
with our catchy tunes and words
now we're photogenic
you know, we don't stand a chance

oh i'll settle down with some old story
about a boy who's just like me
thought there was love in everything and everyone
you're so naive!
they always reach a sorry ending
they always get it in the end
still it was worth it as i turned the pages solemnly, and then
with a winning smile, the poor boy
with naivety succeeds
at the final moment, i cried
i always cry at endings

oh that wasn't what i meant to say at all
from where i'm sitting, rain
falling against the lonely tenement
has set my mind to wander
into the windows of my lovers
they never know unless i write
"this is no declaration, i just thought i'd let you know goodbye"
said the hero in the story
"it is mightier than swords
i could kill you sure
but i could only make you cry with these words"

:: sick ::

i am a little sick of writing if most of you have noticed.

i will stop writing for now. until i find something i really wanna write about.

are you sure
you want to live like common people
you want to see whatever common people see
you want to sleep with common people
you want to sleep with common people like me?

:: a new chapter ::

i'm leaving the saf tomorrow. supposed to just bum around for awhile and then proceed to smu to complete my degree. but in the end i wasn't accepted into smu. now i have to look for a new school, which i am not really keen to.

so what am i gonna do starting next week?

:: up and down ::

the aircon is down. the computer is down. my handphone is down.

but i am still up and running.

:: a series of unfortunate events ::

i got to know someone. and i like the someone. and eventually i fell in love with that someone. i got stressed over that someone. enough said.