:: do i go home today? ::

my family brought me home cradled in their arms
they cuddled me and smiled at me and said i was full of charm
they played with me and laughed with me and showered me with toys
i sure do love my family, especially the girls and boys

the children loved to feed me, they gave me special treats
they even let me sleep with them, all snuggled in the sheets
i used to go for walks, often several times a day
they even fought to hold the leash, i'm very proud to say

these are the things i'll not forget, a cherished memory
i now live in the shelter, without my family

they used to laugh and praise me when i played with that old shoe
but i didn't know the difference between the old ones and the new
the kids and i would grab a rag, for hours we would tug
so i thought i did the right thing when i chewed the bedroom rug

they said that i was out of control, and would have to live outside
this i did not understand, although i tried and tried
the walks stopped, one by one; they said they hadn't time
i wish that i could change things, i wish i knew my crime

my life became so lonely, in the backyard, on a chain
i barked and barked all day long to keep from going insane
so they brought me to the shelter but were embarrassed to say why
they said i caused an allergy, and then they each kissed me goodbye

if i'd only had some classes, as a little pup
i wouldn't have been so hard to handle when I was all grown up
"you only have one day left," i heard the worker say
does that mean i have a second chance? do i go home today?

- author unknown

:: discovery ::

first day at discovery has been great.

i am well paid and i like the place. initially i thought changi business park is like wah lan eh so far. but now i think it's a nice place to work in and it all makes up for it.

we've got foosball and xbox in the pantry. the 4 pantries are sooo big you can have a party in there anytime. and there's about 20 tvs or more in the whole office and they just keep playing shows and i spent about half the day watching them. haha!

the folks i work with are pretty fine. but there's this quite irritating guy that keep trying to find ways to slack. but he got no guts to slack alone and keep persuading me to slack also. wtf. at least i am at level 9 slacking power already and i can slack without anyone noticing. why would i wanna slack with him?

he's got rotten teeth even though he doesn't smoke alot. i bet he doesn't brush his teeth. and i wonder why they hired him because he asked me a killer question today. "where is the sort button? how come mine doesn't work?"

i peered over and saw him frantically clicking on the save button in his excel screen. haha. i just rolled my eyes and pretended to be busy.

:: like fuck ::

i got a pass and a credit for the previous 2 modules i took.

the results are like fuck.

and i am lucky like fuck.

haha.

and i like to fuck.

:: hocus pocus ::

i think i enjoy watching the tricks more than practicing. haha. i doubt i'll become the next david blaine anytime soon. morever my hands are not big enough to handle the cards with ease.

i'll try to practice more from now and hopefully master a trick or two. catch me on the streets!

:: runaway dog ::

refund ran away his 1000000th time on thursday.

i let him into the garden at about 2pm to let him pee because i was quite lazy to dress up and all that to bring him out for a walk at that hour. morever it was blazing hot and i was supposed to wait for the aircon man to come fix the damn aircon that has been down for several days.

so he did it. he sneaked under the gate and was on his way.

this is all thanks to the bad contractor who fixed the gate. who the fuck will fix the gate so high up? and my father said he will fix a grill there so that refund can't sneak out again. again is the key word here because it is really the 1000000th time it happened.

but it was quite different this time round.

on previous occassions i always recovered him in about 10 minutes or so. but it actually took me 1 hour and 30 minutes to find him this time.

i actually thought i might not be able to find him this time. someone cursed me some time back, saying that one day my dog will be lost and i won't find him back. just because i was busy that time when her dog got lost and wasn't able to help her look for it. some kind of friend. but fortunately, that's in the past. the last i heard of her, she's trying to con some boy into believing that she's a cutesy 18 year old girl in cyberworld. 25, ungroomed, overweight and neckless. maybe some people might find that adorable.

eventually after my 6th trip out on a different route to find him (my area got many roads here and there, so there's countless of combinations in the route he might have taken), i finally saw him. he was trapped!

he was very happy and glad to see me. jumping around and wagging his tail. but there's this tall fence between us and i have no idea on how to get him out. apparently he managed to sneak into this place that used to be a hostel for students but it was closed and the gates are locked.

my prince charming came to my rescue! haha. he zoomed zoomed to my place from plaza singapura once he heard his "friend" is missing. anyway we managed to pull the fence from the bottom and make a hole small enough for refund to crawl out.

so all was good. but tennis had to be postponed to the next day because it was late already and i was too tired to play.

someone didn't close the gate today and refund ran away again. hahhhhhh. but i got him back in a minute because he need to pee and cannot run when peeing. haha.

my dog will forever be safe and happy because i would never swear on his life, denying something that i did. it's unfair because it's the never the dogs' fault.

:: genting ::

gonna head to genting for the weekend. it has been a long time since i went overseas. the last time was when i went to perth last year. i really miss the refreshing air there.

i believe the best attraction at genting will be the casino. actually casinos are always the best attractions to me. haha. but i must say again, i am not hardcore gambler and i don't have that much money to be hardcore either.

someone can't go because he is not 21 yet. hur hur. he can spend his time at the theme park and other entertainment spots but i don't want to leave him alone while i am in the casino. and besides, he has got this party on saturday. maybe next time.

i thought i wanna ask another particular someone if he wants to go. but i remembered that he is supposed to have quit gambling. so i shall not tempt him with any opportunities. i am not so wicked like him. he blew smoke into my face even though he knows i just stopped smoking that time. so i guess i can go play the "kiak kiak kiak" game without him. haha!

anyway exam's over and the new modules will begin... tonight. but the work this semester should be less heavy since only 1 module is a core module. i just hope i pass my exams. a good score is totally out of the question now.

i think my tennis has improved. but my stamina is still very bad.

oh yah, i've taken up a new hobby. card tricks! like david blaine ok. just need more practice now and i think i can do it like the real thing!

:: it's not what it seems ::

just in case everyone out there thinks that i am slumped into depression due to my "trouble" lately, i want to say i am not.

it's just some problems. problems that add up and somehow things get out of hand because of my poor insight. i am someone who like to avoid problems, pretending they don't exist. but now i realise that, someone would have to solve them. and no one is so free to go around solving other people's problems, so i guess eventually i would need to learn to do it myself.

so dear friends, fret not, i am still alive and kicking. very much alive actually.

and foes of mine, you can keep the champagne you plan to pop to celebrate my dismal predicament.

anyway i had my e-commerce paper this morning and i think it sucked. so it's either i get a warning letter or i will have to repeat the entire module.