:: numb ::

i wonder will i become someone who is devoid of all feelings one day. maybe that will be the ultimate level of happiness. whereby feeling nothing for everything equates to real happiness. no worries. no nothing.

am i not good enough to deserve a better life?

i am getting sick of all these.

:: i'm bored ::

and things like this cracks me up.

haha.

:: it's me and you, from me to you ::

:: i'm sad ::

the title says it all.

nothing has been going on smooth these days.

i should go for a weekend getaway.

:: am i fat? ::

i haven't wore my 518 in a long time. so i tried to wear it yesterday and it feels quite tight. it was almost squashing my balls. but whatever, i still wore it.

should work out more. otherwise my clothes will not fit anymore.

or maybe it's my dick that has grown?

:: it's not just about looks ::

i think the x-factor plays a big part in a person. some people just look good but after awhile you feel sick just by looking at the person. some people look normal, but they have this extra charisma that makes you want to look at them again. but ultimately i think it's how you project yourself to others that will decide which side of the court you're at.

important stuffs (in my opinion) are to:

1) speak properly. be it mandarin or english. you can try hokkien or whatever, but just speak properly and coherently.
2) dress properly. good enough for the occassion, but do not overdress.
3) be well groomed and smell nice.
4) be smart. the real kind. not act smart.
5) be confident.
6) be polite.

oh yeah. the culling has begun.

:: friends ::

we must learn to exploit them before they exploit us.

friendship is just a transaction between 2 people. so that they can make use of each other in a morally-legal way.

:: english standard ::

i should stop reading those blogs with poor english. in case i get influenced.

and people should stop reading my blog. in case they commit suicide.

haha.

like i've said before, please do not act like you are my friend or want to be my friend when the things you do is otherwise.

1) it is wrong
2) i don't like
3) got no point

can?

:: so bored ::

all driving lessons for the month of september had been snapped up. fuck. no matter what, this is still a neighbourhood driving centre i guess. so i have to be more pro-active and be more kiasu than the people. so i have to wait till october's slots to be open then i can continue with my lessons. i think i will throw $1000 in and book all my lessons 1 shot. chop chop finish everything.

didn't have much to do except the usual. maple, eat, laugh at people's blogs etc etc.

refund is very naughty.

sunny is very noisy.

and i am very sexy.

what a trio.

:: feedback ::

i think i had a post some time back about reading blogs of people. oh well, i had nothing better to do today so i went blog-hopping again. and wow wow, look at the amount of information i found.

it's like "tsk tsk tsk" that kind you know.

sometimes i don't know whether i should symphatise with these people, or just laugh at their mishaps. because i can see that they are asking for it.

:: sucks ::

i think i am an evil person. or maybe vindicative is a better word. i hereby sincerely wish people who don't like me and people that i don't like to have a rotten asshole.

it's just a random thought. i don't know what triggered it also.

i find a lot of people out there very laughable. and usually i find out about the silly things they do thru their blog. so if i don't read your blog, you are not in the list. but do continue being stupid and do weird stuffs, for my entertainment. otherwise i would really have nothing to do except to play maplestory all day.

i don't know when would the next culling be. should be quite soon.

:: color up my life ::

i had my hair dyed again today. it's supposed to be bluish black. but against my very bleached hair, it will turn out smoky blue. but! it turned out steel green with a light tinge of blue. so nice! but it will fade with a week or 2.

thanks michael for helping me with my hair today.

:: woah ::

i can't believe that all the driving slots have been taken up for the entire month of september. means i cannot continue with my lessons until october. like wtf. they should have more open slots for booking.

things that i enjoy some time back

1) clubbing
2) drinking
3) spend time with refund
4) hang out with the gang @ dog's life
5) going places to eat

things that i enjoy now

1) watch movies alone
2) spend time with him
3) spend time with refund and sunny
4) hang out with the gang @ dog's life
5) going places to eat
6) sleep
7) watch dvd

things that i do not enjoy anymore and starting to dislike

1) clubbing

things that i dislike totally ever since i was born

1) entertaining people (especially not so close people)
2) being friendly
3) do work

i like my life now except i don't have enough money to spend. haha. but that can be solved if i really wanna sacrifice abit.

i think i wanna learn yoga.

:: people ::

they come and go in our lives. so let's all learn how to keep the good ones and expel the bad ones. and most importantly, be cool about it.