:: everybody's changing ::

people change as time goes by huh. or maybe they didn't really change. i just failed to see that they are actually like this in the very first place.

i'm like a wild dog that does not belong to any pack. i'm moving along, usually alone. then at times, i would chance upon a pack that i fit in quite nicely. but the stays are always not long. after awhile, i would move away and maybe some time later i might just return. no no... i don't think dogs behave like that. maybe a ship at sea might be a better description. moving all the time, from place to place. then i might just return to the same place after my tour to others.

the dog show's coming! 3 more days. i can't wait. tomorrow would be the last time before the show to practice a little bit more. actually i am more concerned about not making a fool outta myself on the show day itself than winning any prizes. saturday would be chill out day, looking forward to it as well. it has been a long time eversince i last sat down with friends and not think about anything serious but just crap around and relax.

how come i have so much to say tonight? yet i find it hard to put some of my thoughts in words. i guess i am quite messed up now with so many things happening at the same time. hmph...

things in camp seems a little uptight lately. i feel very oppressed when i am there. but i guess that's how the army works. but i will be out of it soon. 11 months. i've survived 17 months already. 11 more isn't alot i guess.

i find that online friends are damn superficial. there are people whom i know online and we only chat online and that's all. tonight, yes only till tonight, i find talking to them quite a waste of time. i find that there isn't much sincerity put into the conversation. afterall, i don't know them that well and vice versa. but i guess only liars see that the world is full of liars.

refund is a good boy for 2 days. for 2 days he managed to keep his shit within the litter tray and pee nicely on the newspaper and not let any leak onto the floor. i think he's like me. very restless. i just can't sit down doing nothing. and even when i am doing something, i need to multitask. like right now, i am eating, blogging, listening to songs, singing along and keeping an eye on the download progress of some mp3s at the same time. refund can multitask too. he can shit and walk at the same time. tsk.

i feel like screaming into the pillow now. stress!