:: moved ::

i have moved to http://ralphralph.blogspot.com

i upgraded this page to the new blogger and i don't know why, somehow it doesn't work properly.

:: a new year ::

i know i am a bit late on posting this. but i had really been busy with so many other stuffs i had no time to blog.

it's 2007 already, time really flies. many will embark upon new phase in their life this year. so i hope all will be well for everyone. especially you, going to army, must really take good care of yourself.

i am somewhat lost now actually. about this new year. what should i try to achieve for this year. i think the top priority now is to get a decent job.

:: pre examination blues ::

it has been more than week since i last wrote. thanks to blogger losing my post last week, i didn't really feel like wring after that.

exams are coming up really soon. i hope the paper would be easy so i can pass with flying colours. ya right. i just hope i can pass. i didn't really do well for the marketing subject but i did for the information systems during the course of this quarter. i guess i am more inclined to information systems type of modules afterall. trying to memorise lengthy passages just ain't my cup of tea.

after these 2 papers, i will finally get my long-deserved break. going thru a year of studies really tired me out quite a bit.

actually thought of going on a tour in december. but looking at the rates, it's better i go in january. it's about $100 cheaper to go in january. morever, it's less crowded. probably need to decide on the destination and book the tickets right after my exams, just in case i splurge all my reserves for christmas.

i still don't know what i can do to reward myself besides the tour. the xbox 360 looks marvellous. but it will set me back by about $1000 as there are just too many games that i want to get. maybe a kind soul would want to buy that for my xmas present. heh.

:: fuck you ::

fuck you blogger for losing my post.

i clicked on publish and it says that it has been published successfully. but no. knn.

:: woohoohoo ::

i am out of job. so here i am, back to the days of job hunting again.

went to thai disco for kelvin's birthday party. it so happened that it's the last day of work at abn for me and allan. so it's good that everyone can have a drink together and enjoy ourselves before we each go our seperate ways.

the place is not as bad as i thought. my initial impression is that the place must be fucking sleazy. but after witnessing it for myself, it's just like any other disco pub but the performers and staff there are all thai. or at least they speak thai.

kelvin got really drunk due to the 10 bottles of chivas and 2 bottles of champagne that were popped. so he puked 3 plasticbag-full, some on the floor, some on himself and some on my right arm. eeewws. lol.

and i saw peter there. peter is this scumbag that sorta screwed-up on my friends' petshop renovations and caused a hell-lot-of trouble for them. he's like a loser drinking alone and he was trying to pick up a few girls.

it's a good time to take a break from work and concentrate on school for now. i just realised that the projects are quite behind time and i must really work hard to finish them.

:: point of view ::

it's about looking at things. about how things are being perceived. our own values. how open-minded and liberal we are. some things are just... undebatable.

finally bought sunny his new cage. i bet he has waited soooo long for this to happen. i bought him new toys as well to go with the new cage. the auntie says i can put at least 3 of them in the same cage as the cage is big enough. but i don't think sunny really wants a cagemate. my pets are like me. solo and very much aloof.

maybe not that unfriendly. but rather, choosy over friends.

work is coming to and end soon. i told them i will leave on the 24th as per my contract as i have found a better offer. but in actual fact, i have found nothing. lol. but i probably will be able to find something better. i am quite sure of that. so most probably i will be relaxing the whole of december and then start on a new job in january.

milestones, milestones. 24th nov, last day of work. 24th nov, attend kelvin's birthday. kelvin is my work colleague who is quite amusing to work with. haha. 1st dec, kranji racing! so exciting. 2nd dec, jimmy's birthday. 5th dec, genting. oh yeah genting. i have to find someone who is willing to take care of refund in my absence.

then there's the 17th of dec. hahah. which unfortunately falls between 2 of my end of year papers. sad.

things will get better in life, i hope.

:: angst ::

i am certainly not in a good mood now.

i am upset with many things.

i feel sick. of people. of work. of school.

i need a drink.

:: it's still fantasy ::

i think jay's really good. his new album certainly surpassed his previous album, november's chopin. his songs are rather versatile, yet they retain his "flavour".

:: exercise ::

the haze wasn't so bad today so i played tennis. i improved. i didn't train but i improved by watching roger and andy play over the past few weeks. not bad huh.

i think i suck at the gym. everything seems so heavy and i can't even complete 1 set of anything. haha.

:: random thoughts ::

i was, as usual, dazing and daydreaming when i was at work today. workload's been pretty low since most of the bankers have moved to the new building. although i am the only customer support personnel servicing what's left of about 200 bankers, there isn't much to do.

i wasn't thinking about what i should do if i win the lottery. that usually leads to a vision of a big house with a big garden for refund to play in. then i'll drive home in my favourite car which is currently the rx8. but that's so typical of most people. daydreaming.

today i thought about my life so far. like what would have happened if i studied harder when i was younger. i'd probably be better off if i was sent to a better school without all that bad influence from my classmates. but i quickly realised that if that were to happen, i'd most likely not meet those people i know so far in my life.

and i surprised myself a little when i found that there isn't many people around i can call friends.

most people think that i am cold and a little aloof. it's true that i don't take to making friends with people easily. i am picky. if i am pissed, i wouldn't hesitate to just ignore the person completely. if i am no longer comfortable, why would i wanna force myself to suffer and, at the same time, put on a pretence and lie to the world?

then i thought about people whom came in and out of my life. there were the fun people i knew in primary and secondary school. the amount of trouble we create for others and ourselves.

then there're people who proclaimed their love for me. come to think of it now, we were just foolish people, who don't know what we were doing.

finally, i thought of what i have now and the people who are still in my life. and i smiled to myself.