:: everybody's changing ::

so much for trying to get myself back to the social circle i used to love. somehow, i feel that it isn't what it used to be and i don't feel like going back to it now. maybe later when i am having another one of those moments i would start missing things again. but definitely not now.

it may sound like a fit of childish ranting here. alot of angst and pent up frustration. but seriously i don't give 2 shits about it and if it changes things further, so be it.

for starters, don't offer me help when you don't mean it. i've rescheduled my week because someone offered to help me on my latest school assignment. i am almost clueless about what the module is about and i probably need alot of help in the assignment. that's when an angel heard my woes and decided to help me. but alas! he dropped a bomb on me. not that i am any worse off in any way, but i feel cheated and somehow it dented the friendship. it's not the first time he dropped a bomb on me but i learnt to trust and put shit behind me. maybe not this time. enough.

secondly, don't sound so awfully disappointed if i am unable to attend some gathering when my opinion wasn't seeked at all. like "hey we are going to on , are you coming?" i am not free and what do you want me to do? since everything is arranged, everyone can go ahead without me and i am not even gonna fucking whine. don't make it sound like i am deliberately trying to avoid the gathering. if i am so important to be around, reschedule.

no time for nonsense people anymore.

i think i shall stick to what i have now and stop looking back at what i have lost. people come and go. only the worthy ones will stay.