:: i am not happy ::

i have failed to contain the angst in me. i am beginning to dislike and hate some of the people around me now. i don't care whether it is deliberate or not, but i just don't feel happy about how they treat me and how they react towards me. i mean you can dislike me, and i am fine with it. but please do not act like you love me to bits and at the same time do things that is the exact opposite. hypocrites will not survive long in my life.

anyway, club momo is quite a nice place actually. michael had his graduation hair show there and he got the most outstanding student award or something along that line. quite an achievement huh. but some stuffs cropped up in the midst of it and i think he is not feeling as happy as he should be now. but it's good now that he has graduated and can embark on his career. i think his parents are very supportive of him so as to give him so much money for the course and all that. i don't think my parents would even loan me money if i wanna learn dog grooming.

my family is like very midway. i think my parents are trying to be liberal. but they are not there yet. and i don't like it.

i am beginning to miss my dog already. and he is just next to me. the thought of not seeing him for more than a week just makes me feel real upset.

i don't know what i will really be doing in australia next week. i don't even have enough money to shop. and i don't think it will be enjoyable if i can't buy things that i wanna buy.

it's a bad day to even think. better do something to keep my mind occupied.