:: vodka and ativan ::

finally it's the weekend again. though there isn't much to do at work, i am feeling really drained. perhaps it's not what we do at work, but the amount of time spent in an environment that we are not comfortable with. it might also be the lack of things to do when i am at work that made me this tired. imagine sitting in the office for a long period of time and there is nothing to be done.

i am mentally exhausted but physically very awake. it's like the heart's saying let's go (to sleep), but the body's saying no. it's not the first time i am feeling this way. the doctor diagnosed this as a sleeping disorder and gave me some pills to help me snooze. but i was told to take it only when absolutely necessary. he said that these are addictive and excessive and prolonged usage will result in side effects like depression.

i'm not trynna kill myself or anything. but let's hope that some of those and a few shots of vodka can do the trick. my mind's a little messy now with some stuffs going on in my life and i desperately want to sleep it off.

hmm hmm... good night!