:: birthday blues ::

ok i am quite sore that i am actually 22 instead of 21 now. age is catching up on me and i am still like unsettled. the future seems like a huge blur to me now. what will i be doing in the later part of my life? i really don't know. going to australia to further my studies and come back to work here as a vet is sorta a dream. but whether it will become reality, i am not too sure. i probably won't survive long alone over there. seriously i don't even feel like leaving. everything is familiar here and not there.

i think i have become immuned to prozacs. it didn't work for me today. somehow i think there is a huge adverse effect. i feel like crying now, but the tears just wouldn't flow. i feel suffocated. it has been a long time since i cried, will tonight be the night?

i need a release. so much pent up frustrations inside me. or probably i need someone who can lift me up and fly with the eagles. where is my angel with wings? i am still waiting for you, do you know that?